It was on a Wednesday morning, when I had an appointment with a company coordinator and decided to honor it. I needed a job/internship to keep me busy before I went for service (NYSC). A friend of mine who worked for this company told me about the coordinator and advised that I should go see him for a possible internship. At least that will get me some experience, she said. So I went to the meeting. I was so nervous that I had stomach upset. But I kept this scripture close to heart that says "God has not given you a spirit of fear, but of power, love and of a sound mind." You see I have battled with fear for some years, more like given into it.
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Because of pasts mistakes in my life, I was never really confident in who I was, but I knew I was bigger than what I saw with my physical eyes. I got there, ready with my pitch, and after he had gone through my resume, he advised I should go back to school. School? What school again? With what money, after all these years? And because of how old I was, I had already passed the age for all entry-level jobs with profitable companies. If I had to enter for a different role, I needed experience.
Experience! The one thing employers look for, and the one opportunity they are not willing to give you! So how are you going to get it? The man advised that I get a master’s degree in my field, get married, or start my own business because the job market was horrible. I felt defeated, I felt like a failure. Here I am again, I am almost 30, with "nothing" to show for it.
I was sad on the ride back home. When I got home, I prayed and cried like I haven't done in a while. I've been down this road countless times before. Then I started asking God to intervene; am I not your child? I said to Him. Are you not God? Why should the heathen's prosper and your children not? I know I’ve blown away opportunities, but have I blown it for you as well? If I have, then that goes against everything written in the Bible.
If you are familiar with the Bible, you may know about Gideon a man who was the weakest in his clan, but God used him to achieve many battles. Joseph was a slave and became the second in command of an entire kingdom in a foreign land. David was a shepherd boy, but he killed Goliath and became king, and the list is endless. God did His mighty, unusual and unpredictable work through these people.
In fact, when the disciples took their place after Christ had gone back to heaven, people said; these men are uneducated, how come they are so wise? Then they realized the men had been with Jesus. So if anyone was a candidate for the move of God in her life, I was. Those were the thoughts on my heart. Since it was a Wednesday, my church had midweek service. So I went to church that evening, and when the pastor began to speak, he said "God does not create anyone a failure"
I was wowed! I could not believe it. He went on and on about the things I was just crying to God about a few hours prior to when I went there. Tears began to roll down my cheeks. God must really love me! I thought to myself. He heard my cries, He felt my heartache, and He sent forth His word so I could begin to see things differently.
How can Someone care so profoundly? Someone Who knows my flaws, my weaknesses, my sins, my shortcomings, my fears! And yet He still loves me enough to tell me that I am not a failure? That He doesn't make mistakes? I don't know about you, but I was blown away. I went back home that night, and suddenly didn't feel that fear anymore, I no longer felt like a failure, because the One Who loves me reassured me. Oh, how I love those reassurances that come from above! They are like music to my ears. God loves me so deeply; I realized it, at that moment. Then I thought to myself is this love or coincidence? I believe it's love!
That was in 2017, since then I started my online platform Letstalknationblog.com (yes, if you are reading this article, then you are on the website), I have written 94 articles for Let’s Talk Nation, 14 for Thrive Global and 4 for Iridescent Women. I am still blown away by the fact that I have done so much writing in less than one year since I started officially. People read my articles from every part of the world. Places like Peru, India, France, The United Kingdom, Spain, Australia and so on. God gave me a great gift, and has used it to bless me. A lot of people who knew me pre-writing, are amazed that I am a writer and also great at it. They didn’t know I had it in me, I didn’t either.
If you don’t know what direction to face in life, when it comes to your career or purpose, turn to God. He has created each and every one of us uniquely with gifts and talents. You have to discover what those are, and use them effectively and for His glory (because He freely gave them to you).
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